i have now come to terms with

a) my ugliness [which did not exist until a year back]

b) the fact that im the most infamous badmouthing bitch in the whole of class 12 (and i dont even bother doing it behind the back, or boast of being right in the face. thing is, it just doesnt matter whether the back or the face even EXIST) but its mostly justified, or just temporary animosity.

c) the fact that im not on top at the moment. um, yes no elaboration.

and why this isnt on my main blog is- this is not a post meant to garner sympathies or anything such. dudes, im ok as ever (unless you count a nagging ear-ache), and this is just for the record. so thank you readers for being non existent.

i really really want to drop hindi as a subject, its a waste of time and absolute mindfuck trying to get homeworks done and a direct consequence of not doing them is incredible humiliation in class, thanks to our overtly sincere-to-her-work teacher. i have nothing against her, but the impossibility of evading Hindi homeworks- how absolutely ridiculous a concept for a class 12 student.
:/

why cant i drop it? oh nothing much.just that my mother wants me to keep it.
..

anyway, i really feel like painting and i have no colours. ok no thanks to sneha i do have a set of 8 matt finish poster colours, but the ideas in my head scream- acrylics!
grr.

ok so i did what i was asked to do, and this time i was asked for more than earlier. blah but i like it now xD

anyhow, i have two moredrawingsorwhatevertodo and then ill be done. exams are coming up- from the 25th. its not funny how i keep repeating my pre-exam strategy each time, inspite of it being a total faliure. but hah, its not like im ever left with a choice thanks to my neglect at othertimes.enoughoframbling, i go waste some more of my very un-re-usable time.

im so happyimsohappy.

a) i updated my ipod andsoitsworkingagain! the error shit is gone.

b) IGOTKABHIKABHIADITIONTHENET!FREEDOWNLOADZINDABAAD

ok yes thassit.

old stuff.
i feel pathetic.i was asked to do something which i cant do now because my laptop crashed/scanner isnt working/ no photoshop. deadlines. grah.

i suddenly really really need/want a keyboard/piano cause i think i can pick up stuff on one pretty well right now, says my current frame of mind.
and i feel this urgent need to write-scream-vent but nothing inside.nothing.

the best (only good thing?) about being in GDB is that i'll NEVER miss it after passing out of school.